My ex-best friend tried to commit suicide..

It doesn’t matter how we arent friends anymore, but im just thinking about her tonight..and how she texted me one night saying ” ow, glass hurts”. i knew what she meant but i didnt  think much of it because for us, its was a nightly routine. But a couple weeks later she was going on about all her issues and how she attempted suicide. I didnt understand. She always texted me when she hurt hurself but never ever told me she tried to kill herself. I was confused so i asked her when she tried to do it. She said “remember that time i told you glass really hurt?well…” I didnt know what to do. What if she really did die that night. I only thought it was a small cut or something small enough it couldnt kill her. But she said it was deep. deeper than ever. What if she was gone? i never wouldve got to say goodbye. I dont know. Im just thankful shes still here. Even if we dont talk anymore.