I am a cutter.  For about a year now.  It has grown a bit more and more each month, where I have to do a bit more.  I hate when my old cuts heal and fade.  I *love* to look at my blood drip down my arms or legs.  I love to wipe it up with tissue and lately I leave a bit of it on the walls or just “somewhere”….. not really sure why - I guess I just want to.
I just think my blood is beautiful in its own way.  I keep medical tape with me pretty much all the time so if I cut – I can hide it.  NOBODY knows I am doing it cuz I only do it in places with it cant be seen.  I dont want attention or ridicule.  I know enough people who deal with that crap and that is not for me. I just love my blood and I love when i slash with my razor and for a split-second – you dont know if that cut will bleed or not….. then you see it start to flow.
it calms me.  Anyone else?
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Absolutely. The shade of red is just beautiful. The cutting stops my spinning thoughts and allows me to breathe. Yeah, I understand. I cut to live.
Well said GI. Thank you.