I’m getting closer to the end here, and I don’t think anything will help anymore  (not that I need help or advice). This note is just for me and anyone who is on the same path as I am. I wish you luck in your life, but maybe I am just saying that because it’s the norm of things to say those kind of stuff. But, regardless. Good luck.
My suicide thoughts at night: Wait for step-dad to buy alcohol and leave it in the fridge over night. I go in next morning and steal the alcohol from the fridge. I make my way to one of the high abandon train bridge that is high enough over the water to ensure a kill, and drink away till I am no longer sober. P.S. Turn off phone to ensure no emotional backfire or thoughts from family, friends that’s wondering where you are. When drunk, the alcohol will intensified sad emotion into that of hell, and then just jump. Done.
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don’t do it.. last thing u wane hear or think u need to, but don’t
that sounds like my plan ……its sad tho 🙁
I just took sertraline (zoloft) for the first time in ages, and WOW. I calm down completely after taking it.
well that good that you calmed down 🙂
Personally for me, I’ve always found the prospect of bridge-jumping the hardest. It seems downright terrifying. I’ve stood at 60+ft cliffs before while hiking around the mountainous areas where I am, and became overwhelmed with the fear of jumping. I can vividly imagine myself in free-fall and then crashing into whatever lies below, the trauma in my legs, my knees slamming into my teeth… I couldn’t do that.
Perhaps that’s just an undiagnosed fear of heights on my part, but it seems to be one of the least peaceful methods of suicide. I don’t know if peaceful is what you’re aiming for or not, but I’ve always held the belief that if you’re going to go it should be done in a calm, peaceful manner, if possible. Suicide should be almost celebratory. There aren’t many methods out there than pertain to my motto I know, I’m still figuring it out myself. Just my 2 cents.
Yeah Zoloft gave me the sh!ts but it also smoothed out the deepest pot holes. I’m glad you are feeling better kittensarecute 🙂
@kittensarecute Hmmm… Zoloft never worked for me… But coffe does wonders! 🙂
@sbkstep43 How are ya?
@just.me.20 sick