I’m unappreciative, annoying, attention seeking, fat, spoiled teenage girl. I make my friends feel like shit, talk shit about my own friends, and make everyone hate me. Even though I am apparently a “social butterfly,” I feel like I’m alone.
I know I’m not a good person.
I’m a liar.
I don’t know why I do it, and nights like these I sit in bed and cry. I still cut, too, and broke my 5 month streak of not cutting.
I’m a complete failure to every body. When I hurt my friends/family or fight with them, I always act like it doesn’t make me feel bad, but it really does. Â I try to stop myself from doing such bad things to people, but I can’t. The word, “can’t” is the word that always pops up in my life.
If I wasn’t so afraid to end it, if I would just get over it. I wouldn’t feel this bad anymore, and I wouldn’t ruin everyone’s lives. I’m sorry, I really am sorry.
I don’t know what to do anymore, to be honest.
I’ll always seem to be an attention seeker in everyone’s eyes.
1 comment
you probably are not that bad of a person. And if you are you can always change. Change can be very good. It’s not attention seeking it’s you looking for answer and help. Please stay alive.