Hi all
I hope everyone feels at least as well as I do.
Today was weird, really weird. Well, oha its hard for me to explain what I want. I must give it a try.
Hum…. Honestly I don’t know what I want to tell you.
In the afternoon I got those stomach ache’s I get from lovesickness. Maybe it’s because I spend the last 4 days a few hours with my love, yes the same person from last year.
I struggled hard with myself this afternoon. I was pretty much nearly crying, … I don’t know what happened. I thought I am okay, I am done with my love, although I still love her of course. I wondered if it would have been the best if I never contacted her again, after she rejected me…. The second time…
But honestly, she is my best friend, she is the only human who wants to know how my life is going, she is the most friendly person in my life at the moment.
All I need are some friends, friends I can go out with, friends I can do something in the afternoon, but especially someone who can understand me. I know I am a socially weird person, I am feeling uncomfortable in groups. I remain silent in groups(more then 2 people). I know I can never change this, it’s just my character.
I am feeling better now, much better, writing stuff down helps me often getting over bad feelings.
Thank you for reading this. I wish everyone to get well, stay alive, everything will become fine, someday, I hope for you. Â =)