Hey. I’m Andrew, or Andy, whatever. I’m 15. I’m a pansexual FTM transgender. I cut, smoke, and drink. I’m fucked up in the head. I wish I was dead. I’ve been collecting pills to do it for about 2 weeks now, and I’m planning to use them very soon. Well, just wanted to introduce myself. I dont really know how this site works, so if anyone wanst to show me the ropes it would be greatly appreciated.
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You can’t commit suicide with pill overdose because your body will vomit the pills soon after you lose consciousness. You might even end up with damaged kidneys and liver and be in an extreme pain for a long time.
Pill overdose is not recommended method of suicide, and many people who tried it (and failed) here on this forum can confirm that.
BTW Where are my manners. Since this is your first post let me be the first one who will say to you: WELCOME to this site 🙂
http://suicideproject.org/about/
All you need to know is essentially all in the link.
Why do you feel so bad?
And which kind of pills have you collected?
Hi, Andy. Please don’t hurt yourself. You can get through this. With help from people on here or elsewhere. I do hope you don’t take these pills that you have collected.
As for the site, I’m quite new to this here too but I have come to the conclusion that you just submit entries, sort of like Diary posts. People can reply to them and you reply to their comment. You can also comment on other peoples posts. I hope this has helped you.
🙂
Thank you for the help Kealeigh <3 I might take them I might not i dont know yet. Are you thinking of suicide or are you a surivior?
Andy,
Can one truly be f2m without seeing the transition through to completion. It seems you still have much to learn — and teach.
Here, you can be who you choose to be. For as long as you wish to be.
Welcome to SP, Andy.
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@FTMfreak I’m both. I attempted the day after boxing day last year. But ever since then, everything has got worse and all I think about is killing myself. I cut a lot but there’s always the urge to do something more damaging. <3
Ive collected 250 in all. They probs wont work but why not give it a shot. I have 50 cymbalta and 200 oxicontins. I feel like shit because I am shit. Its just a loooong fucked up story. noonoo12 why do u wanna do it?
Thank you for welcoming me 🙂 You’re very kind.
OMG where are my manners too?!?! Noonoo12, thank you for sending me the link <3
So true Dragonfly. This is a really rough time for you, and it’s going to be hard, but if you are in a safe community to make the transition then let yourself be yourself for at least another year. It will pass quickly and so much is going to happen to you.
If you can find a mentor who has been through the process they might be able to help you, in the meantime toss the pills. Throw them in the toilet and flush. Let go of the idea for now. Given how easy it was to build up your collection, it wouldn’t hurt to know that you can always get them again, but having them around is like keeping a loaded gun in the house, it isn’t just you that could get hurt.