Today was a better day than yesterday.
No lie, just knowing that someone cared just a bit helped me this much.
But as soon as I lay & relaxed a bit my mind goes wild and brings back everything.
Sometimes i just wish i could be able to reboot myself and delete all this effed up files i have inside me.
I havent harm myself since ’09 and im hoping to stay the way, but is soo effing hard.
Sometimes i envy those who dont give a fck about  their problems/past/issues and live life as if nothing bothers them.
I want that but whatever im stuck with this effed up mind. So i need to learn to deal with it. How to work with it. How to redirect my thoughts into “positive healthy thoughts” blah….!!!
But it was a better day lol