I am fourteen and in the past seven months my life has turned upside down. In early September I started getting sick, eventually having to switch to home bound school. After lots of doctors and testing I was diagnosed with chronic Lyme disease and POTS. After about a month of home bound school I switched to online school. I have been going through antibiotic treatment for the past six months and have gotten no improvement, if anything i am worse. I have extreme sensory overload which makes it uncomfortable or even painful to go out of the house. I spend most of my day lying down in a dark room, which I know isn’t good but it is the only place I feel comfortable. I cry at least twice a day anymore, really whenever I am alone. I don’t get to make any decisions for myself and I am constantly in agony.I don’t really care about anything anymore, I just want to be released. I don’t care if I die or get better but I just can’t do this anymore. I beg god to free me  and  if I had the chance to die I would take it without question. I just feel lost and alone and don’t have a will to live anymore.
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To me it sounds like loneliness is the most dangerous threat. You have had to adjust the Lyme makes people bed ridden and reclusive. This site will help you can dump your worries here.
5 or 10 minutes walk, or asking someone to take you for a 10-minute car ride seems like it might help. Loneliness on top of your other burdens would kill anyone. Do you have pets?
Hello,
I’m so sorry you got Lyme disease. It’s an epidemic here in the U.S. I had chronic Lyme for 17 years. I got it in 1988. Even though I had the bullseye rash and all the symptoms the doctors I went to didn’t diagnose it, so I got no treatment.
I eventually found a cure and am well now. I met a man who invented a machine called a Doug Coil, named after him. He could tell right away I had Lyme from my symptoms. He and his wife both had lyme and antibiotics weren’t working. He’s an engineer, so he did some experimenting with Lyme bacteria he and a doctor friend got from the CDC. He developed a machine that worked to kill Lyme bacteria in the body, and they both recovered.
The Doug coil machine produces about 600 watts of electromagnetic power from it’s coil. You just move it around touching your body for about 10 minutes every two weeks. As the bacteria die they release toxins which gives you a herx reaction. It took me two weeks to recover from the herx before I could do another treatment each time. It was two years before I started to feel better, and three before I was well. You’ve had Lyme for a much shorter time so it probably won’t take as long for you’
I probably never would have tried anything like this if I hadn’t met Doug, I would have thought it was a scam. But it’s not, it works.
Google Doug Coil and you will find information about it. You can buy a new one ready to go for about 1500 dollars. You are so young, you have you’re whole life ahead of you. Times are tough for you now, but you will get well, you just have to be tough to get through it.
Hey, I really admire you, You’ve been through so much pain and endurance. You accept the dark around you and let it envelop your being into nothing which is beautiful… Just take the bad and remember to make it into a grand piece of magnificence once you have enough broken pieces to work with. Once you see the dark, the light will always be so much more bright, loving, and graceful. You can do it, I’m here for you whenever morenomari1@yahoo.com…we can help eachother
The doctors now suspect that I had Lyme 4 years ago and then got reinfected this year. I think my biggest issue is definitely sensory overload, I can’t stand being around people any more because they always talk too much and too loud, my parents can’t even touch me anymore because the feeling of someone touching me even sends me into overload. I am afraid that I am getting stuck, because I also have such bad join pain and tight sore muscles that it hurts to walk or climb stairs. I get that being lonely is a bad thing but honestly I am closer to being happy and more comfortable when I am alone than when I am around other people.