I felt the same way Sunday. I broke a lightbulb and tore my arm up. I bled out and actually died. But my parents are both medical specialist, my dad a doctor and my mom a nurse. They resesitated me and called an ambuance and now I can’t move or feel my left forearm, and I’m going to intensive outpatient therapy. I’m not being institutionalized only because my parents are medical proffesionals. If you feel this way, trust me. GET HELP! It isn’t worth the pain! I know it feels hopeless and I know it’s hard going every fucking day without answers, but trust me. I personally found out it isn’t worth it. If you need someone, I’m here. I don’t want anyone to go though what I have been through. I don’t want you to do this. Please just get help! call a friend or family member! They’d rather hear you talk about it than see your lifeless body. My family told me that just two days ago. And I’m telling you. Please just hold on. You are not nor will you ever be alone. I, and many others, are by your side.