Hm so im completely lost with everything. Im not sure what im supposed to do.
I have been dating someone for 7 months but the begining of this month he left for the navy… for recruit school and that goes for 9 months and we can only talk for a few minutes on the weekend. I used to pretty much live with him, never came home and now that hes gone im stuck living back with my family. I would say my deppression went away when i was living with him but since being home ive crashed and burned, i cant even keep a job, I was supposed to start yesterday but i didnt go because I hate being around people that much. Im 20, I left school at the begining of year 11 and did nothing. I havent got an education or any knowledge on anything so I cant get a “real” job. I hate everything and everyone.
Im so fucked. I couldnt ever kill myself but its so sad wishing i dont wake up when im laying in bed. Ive started sleeping all day and being up all night. I have a doctors appointment on friday but I dont know how youre supposed to bring this shit up.. he thinks im a perfectly happy person.
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Change things for the better then. Love yourself enough to want to try and do better. Get your GED find a program in community college that you wanna do apply for financial aid. Get a part time job and go to work everyday and use it as a reminder to yourself that your going to go to school and finish so you can work somewhere better. I don’t care for people much myself and felt similar to that a few times. Like I was going no where and just had crap jobs. I love myself and I am switching majors and I’m striving for the best grades I can just to hurry and make it through. You gotta open your eyes your situation can be changed and you have the power to change it. I believe that your capable of doing great things you need to believe that as well.
You are 20. You can do anything in life. Become anything. You have all the time to make it. At this age you really have to be enthusiastic about your possibilities.
I don’t know your medical background but it seems to me that going to the doctor is like
seeking to find confirmation that there is some illness that you have when it does not seem
that to me at all. As the other person said, engage into studying, but stay away from
signing loans. Start with some easy profession that you like and get the books in the library
or do practical training whatever it takes. Whether it is hairdressing or graphic or web
design there are thousands of videos on youtube to teach you lots of things.
Truly believe me, I studies at Harvard and I learned more about computer science on
youtube than at the science class of programming.
hugs
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