Hello all my fellow truth-seers and truth-seekers.
I think it’s going to be soon. I’m no troubled teen. Not anymore, I once was. I was abused as a child. I have no family that I currently speak to. No help at all in the middle of this great recession. I have a shitty job that I’m trapped in. After an entire childhood of feeling trapped I don’t want to feel trapped anymore. No friends really. People don’t want to connect with someone who’s been traumatized.  Too ‘scary’. Too real. All I’ve ever been is thrown away by anyone I ever cared about.
I want to make an exit bag and attach it to helium. Soon.
I promised myself I wouldn’t tell anyone when I was really ready to do it, that I would just do it. No more ‘cries for help’ that everyone can ignore. But I want someone on planet Earth to know my plan. So I am telling you.
-X
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I’m in exactly the same position as you thinking the same thing as you. It feels so lonely and the feeling of wanting to end it all seems to be getting stronger by the day. Worst thing is I’m beginning to see this as a normal life, working out everyday weather to go or what should I keep going for? This can’t be normal. I hope you find your way out of this because really I hope I find a way out but really I’m just not seeing it.
For now, I could easily advise these 2 things:
1. If you don’t like the situation, then change it.
Talking only won’t bring any change.
2. Find & connect with similar like-minded people, who can truly really appreciate you for who you are (doesn’t even have to come from your close family, friends! can be people from across the continent/world!)
But I also know how hard it is for these changes to take place,
but try to take it one day at a time, slowly but sure. Be IN control of yourself.
You may not and cannot change other people, but you can always surely change yourself & your mindset/attitude.
At least before you choose the final option: death, try these first, while you’re still breathing and living on this planet Earth.
Oh Unhappy Times. Thank you for responding. I hope you find a way out of your pain. Just reading the few lines you wrote made me feel a little less alone in this shitty shitty world