dont bother reading..but i still need HELP!

Why do you need someone to care?

Should you let someone else define you? Or should you choose to define yourself, through your own actions?

I am certain someone would “notice” if you were suddenly not there.

It sucks to exhaust your coping mechanics, especially when we all have to spend so much of our coping, on things other people chose.

The inability to cope needs to end. The things you’re required to cope with should be reduced. Your ability to cope needs to improve.

If it’s a reason someone else can so easily take away from you, then is the reason really ever “yours?”

Do you want it to get better?

Do you want a reason no one else can take away from you?

You have to make it.

It’s hard and slow.

Ask yourself: how bad do you want it?

How bad does it feel, to need what you can’t have, and to have such a fragile reason that isn’t really yours, taken away from you, so easily?

How hard would you be willing to work, to build a self that doesn’t require such fragile reasons, that you can’t really even protect?

Building a better self is the only way to avoid such pains, without giving up the chance to experience the good things life can offer… but life won’t just hand you those best parts. You have to dedicate yourself to a lifelong pursuit of self-improvement, and refuse to give up.

You’re young yet. You have plenty of time, if you start now.

Don’t let others define you. Define yourself.