Love?

What do we do when we are alone…too scared to make new friends when the ones you have don’t want you back, when the one person you love you can’t be enough for…when you don’t care about your family and when your life is spiralling downwards into financial and educational problems…I am too afraid to end my life, the idea of me talking about it just clarifies that, so what do i do? I am afraid to lose the only girl i’ve ever loved by ending everything, I don’t care about my friends or family, all I would like to know would be how long it would take for them to get over me, out of curiosity I want to know what people think of me. How do you build the strength to die when you can’t build the strength to live?