So Hurt

I stood were you stand now, and I stood in the position were your friends stand. I wouldn’t advise to just let it out. Be careful doing that, for yourself and for them. No matter how much they care, hearing everything what’s inside at once can scare them off… NOT because they don’t care, but because they do not know how to handle it, and running away from it often looks like the only possible way then. Closing yourself off is the baddest thing to do, like Bsuar said: we are all social creatures, although it seems the most easy thing to do now, it will be the baddest with time. Start with little things, and build up. Look first how they react, and you will notice and feel with who you can and can not share all that. Maybe you can connect to animals, that’s often helpful to put it all together, to give a little insight. Or perhaps you can search other mediums: drawing, writing, poems, music, MOVEMENT (not competition sports, or things like that, but just movement, especially because you are a student, you’ll feel some change). Remember you don’t have to be good at any one of them, you just have to try and feel what suits you. You might get help from them, but that’s not the end of the road… Both of them are important, sharing what you feel with your loved ones and looking for other mediums to get insight in what’s going on inside of you. And remember your mother isn’t the only way to get help, your getting some right here, but in school, guidance supervisors or student counselors… If you feel the need for that, just take action.