I cant live and even cant die

Here is a paradox for you.

We can’t live because we don’t allow ourselves to “die”
To live well we must allow the thoughts and attitudes that no longer serve us to die.
Instead we hold on, and in holding on find ourselves falling.

Life is a series of deaths and rebirths.
To live well require that we learn to “die” well, to learn how to let go of the things we can’t change, change the things we can, and find acceptance for ourselves as we go through the process.

So though not the intention of your post your title states the problem and solution.
(A demonstration of how the unconscious works. The unconscious has access to far more information about us then the conscious does so we might want to lesson to it every now and then.)