I hate myself and the life i live in
Im a nobody
Im worthless
My mom doesnt like me
My dad doesnt like me
Nobody likes me
Nobody cares
I havent cried since last week
I know im not beautiful but do people have to remind me every
single day
Why do people have to lie to my face and say that
I know im ugly
I know im not going anywhere in life
I know i have my faults but why would you bring them everyday
I have no support
No congrats
No ..nothing
Im not anyone
Im not going to be anyone
I hate myself
But people still remind me
Why I should hate myself
And when someone says im cute or pretty or even beautiful
No
I dont understand
I probably never accept that
Cause people messed with my feelings
I cant take compliments
why should i
i can never tell if anyone is being serious with me
i know im not beautiful
What
like
no
175 pounds and only 16 for a girl in this society and the rules they laid out its pretty fucking disgusting
fucking disgusting
And i cant lose that weight for a couple of years due to my recent injury
Even when i was skinny i wasnt pretty Or even decent
Just fucking disgusting
So im not beautiful
  Beautiful is such a powerful word that im not worthy of being
called
i dont ever see anyone liking me
Thinking about me
Loving me
I cant imagine that
I hate myself and nobody loves me
Im lonely in this dreadful world
I hate it here
I want to die but i cant
I wont until i lose it completely
Ive always imagine what life would be like if i died
Would anyone care
Would anyone even worry
No… I dont think so…Â Sadly i dont even know my true
friends and family
Ive probably never even met my true family
Whens the day my mom will hug me and say its going to be okay
Never
Whens the day my dad is going to stop lying to make me like
him
Never
Whens the day ill ever be happy?
…..
Never.
Im always getting judged
Good or bad
Theres tears rolling down my cheek
I dont care for anyone anymore because no one cares for me
Sure i have a home
Sure i have clothes and people to back em uoBut me being a selfish “prick” that i am
i cant stop complaining about how shitty my life is.
There so many other people who have it worse than i do and i cant be grateful for what i have
I try
i really do
i try to recognize that everything could be 100% worse than it already is
Hmm so which name is it today
Stupid
*****
Moron
Street rat
Worthless
Fatass
******
Im so done with life
Why do the innocent die they dont deserve it
they had such big plans
Plus their families cared for them
Someone must of liked them
They couldnt have just been ignored someone must of loved them.
Why cant i die
No one would care so why do i have to stay
I dont want to stay
Im done with being sad
Why cant someone give me a big hug and tell me everything is going to be alright.Â
I hate breaking down like this
Crying makes me feel so weak
All i do is complain
Wine
Nothing intelligent comes out from me
My grades and hardwork mean nothing to anyone
Not my teachers
Not my parents
No one pays attention to me
Im tired of no one giving two shits about me
Nothing matters right?
So why should i be complaining about why i should matter?
Im stupid and worthless
Im not important i never was to begin with
Im nothing in this world
Im just a measly piece of meat just waiting to die anytime soon
I have nothing planned for the future
I dont have any big plans
Nobody likes me
Nobody cares
Nobody will ever love me
But thats it
Im sick
Im sick of life
And everyone
Im spiraling down to the pits of hell
No one cares for me
No one will.
Ill try to update if im still around
4 comments
no you are cared about and you are not worthless i promise you youre not. the beauty of this is i cant see but i can tell you that your beautiful because you are. it doesnt matter what you like and even then im sure your beautiful too it matters who you are.
you cant say youre selfish and should be greatful for what you have beacause there are people worse off than you because you need help to. everyone’s pain is different and it doesnt matter who you are or what you do because you are hurting and someone should care and when you think no one else does i do care i promise.
–not because people don`t come to you and say i love you it does not mean people don`t love you, you sound like a very loving person, think about the hundreds of people that will miss you and your family that will grieve for you every day, please talk to someone, no one can see your pain by just looking at you. Talk to a pastor or a friend. Life is meaningless, life really has no meaning,YOU MUST PUT A MEANING TO LIFE, the meaning you put to your life, thats what life will mean to you, my son of 25 years commit suicide 30 days ago if only he had talk to me his dad or mom or any he would of been alive today now he destroys his life and his mom his dad, brother grandmother, nephew and nice friends and family, if i can only save one life just for my son sake, if only he knew how much he was love by so many people.
–not because people don`t come to you and say i love you it does not mean people don`t love you, you sound like a very loving person, think about the hundreds of people that will miss you and your family that will grieve for you every day, please talk to someone, no one can see your pain by just looking at you. Talk to a pastor or a friend. Life is meaningless, life really has no meaning,YOU MUST PUT A MEANING TO LIFE, the meaning you put to your life, thats what life will mean to you, my son of 25 years commit suicide 30 days ago if only he had talk to me his dad or mom or any he would of been alive today now he destroys his life and his mom his dad, brother grandmother, nephew and nice friends and family, if i can only save one life just for my son sake, if only he knew how much he was love by so many people.
–not because people don`t come to you and say i love you it does not mean people don`t love you, you sound like a very loving person, think about the hundreds of people that will miss you and your family that will grieve for you every day, please talk to someone, no one can see your pain by just looking at you. Talk to a pastor or a friend. Life is meaningless, life really has no meaning,YOU MUST PUT A MEANING TO LIFE, the meaning you put to your life, thats what life will mean to you, my son of 25 years commit suicide 30 days ago if only he had talk to me his dad or mom or any he would of been alive today now he destroys his life and his mom his dad, brother grandmother, nephew and nice friends and family, if i can only save one life just for my son sake, if only he knew how much he was love by so many people.