I don’t know what to say but Im sorry for your pain. I just got on this site tonight and its made me realize how much other people are suffering much worse than I. You are and I don’t know what to say but that even if your family isn’t there for you there are people out here in the world who do care about you and want to talk and help you. you don’t know me but my heart hurts for you. Someone out here wants to hug you and chat if u want