sucky days lead to bad life

first things first if your gonna comment (optional) can you pleaz state your age and current location oh and your sex cuz this whole things got me confused. ive had a couple of interesting days ummm let me think on sunday my mom screamed at me for no apparent reason she told me to stop with my attitude AND i swear i was gonna kill myself or my sub-dad GOD!!! wat he did was unexeptible you wanna know wat he did? HE the fucking asshole hurt my precious puppy soufle and i havent cried in years and for HIM  to do that to her i just burst out in tears i felt so bad and it was all my  fault i SWEAR im never letting HIM touch her AGAIN!!! if he EVER hurts soufle Ever again ill fucking KILL him i got the knofe ready in my secret place and everything so you know im prepared.On monday my friends said they forgive me for lieing but i dont really care cuz i dont need friends so nothing that interesting happened that day.Ummmmm YESTERDAY now that was an interesting day my god it was amazing wanna know what happened?  first me and my mom started fighting she was going off about my attitude AGAIN and then she was like “im tired of you why dont you just leave! why dont you stop being depressed and mad? why dont you just put on a smile and PRETEND like you like life!’ i responded ‘well i sould at least have the right to control my emotions’ then shes all like ‘ you abviously cant control them if you take your anger out on your sisters’ now thats when i was surprised did she just say i was takeing my anger out on my sisters because abviously its going the other way around.Later at night i forgot what they were fighting about now but my mom and sub-dad started fighting their was yelling and things being pushed i swear adults have no concideration for others i mean you guys are fighting while im trying to put the lil ones to sleep like REALLY you couldnt get anymore selfish.The 2nd oldest gets involved in adult business and that always spells trouble she starts yelling at sub-dad and at one point sub-dad turns around and my sis falls my moms going crazy on how he pushed her and how shes gonna call the cops (she never called the cops of course)and i told my sis before not to get ivolved and im telling her congrats then my mom comes up to me yelling ; congrats on what,you never even wanted him here HUH huh!!! I  just said well things are suddenly changeing and earlier she was screamin at me tellin me to speak my mind for ones i mean really how can you tell a physco whats on your mind without being afraid.YOU CANT BELIEVE WHAT MY MOM DID AFTER THAT!!!  she took bug poisen locked herself in her room and spayed that shit EVERYWHERE that crazy ***** tried to kill herself and other then that she didnt care she almost killed our other dog gigi (she was under the bed) well my sub-dad gave me the other poisen can fully loaded fucking retard and i have it in  my bookbag rite now.later that night there was a sudden outburst that my mom might be pregnant with his kid UGH! now he has a reason to stay.I also found out that my mom tried to overdose on pills and tried to slit her wrists ***** shoulda tried harder.I think ive set the date either i end it when ever i cant take it anymore and im alone,when its my birthday next year or on my birthda 2012 just so i could prove to my sub-dad that someone is gonna die in 2012.Any hoo thats all nothing really happened today (other then its snowing like hell here in queens)at least not rite now if anything does happen then ill post about it tomorrow until then see you = D