I feel as if my life has no purpose now, I told my story so it is not a burden anymore, I have tied of my relationships with the few people that were close to me, the school year is over and I have no other commitments that someone else cannot take over if I were to “accidentally” die. The only thing left to do that I can see is apologize, so here I go:
1. I am sorry I am so weak.
2. I am sorry I could not prevail.
3. I am sorry I failed you.
4. I am sorry for being so selfish.
5. I am sorry I gave up.
6. I am sorry for hurting you.
7. I am sorry for breaking my promises.
8. I am sorry I am leaving.
9. I am sorry for hardly being here even when I was alive.
10. I am sorry for causing your tears to fall.
11. I am sorry for being worthless.
12. I am sorry for being useless.
13. I am sorry for being depressed.
14. I am sorry for not being able to get over my past as much as I wanted to.
15. I am sorry complaining all the time.
16. I am sorry you had no idea what I was thinking.
17. I am sorry for all the lies.
18. I am sorry for stringing you along on my quest to die.
19. I am sorry for making you believe I was someone else.
20. I am sorry for hiding all the time.
21. I am sorry for being anti-social.
22. I am sorry letting you down when you needed me most.
23. I am sorry for having these thoughts.
24. I am sorry for being so naïve.
25. I am sorry for not talking to anyone.
26. I am sorry for every bad thing I have ever done.
27. I am sorry getting drunk as much as I did.
28. I am sorry all the self mutilation.
29. I am sorry for destroying the family.
30. I am sorry for destroying people’s lives.
31. I am sorry for making everyone’s lives a living hell.
32. I am sorry that I caved.
33. I am sorry that I cracked.
34. I am sorry that I could not forgive myself.
35. I am sorry that I could not forgive my father.
36. I am sorry that I could not forgive my mother.
37. I am sorry that I could not forgive my father’s wife.
38. I am sorry that I could not forgive my mother’s boyfriend.
39. I am sorry that I could not forgive my friends.
40. I am sorry that I could not forgive my family.
41. I am sorry for being mentally insane.
42. I am sorry for being mentally ill.
43. I am sorry for being mentally unstable.
44. I am sorry for my growing obsession with blood.
45. I am sorry for my growing obsession with death.
46. I am sorry for my growing obsession with fire.
47. I am sorry for my obsession with investigations on ways to die.
48. I am sorry for writing about suicide.
49. I am sorry for writing about depression.
50. I am sorry for resorting to death.
51. I am sorry for not being able to help my brother with growing up.
52. I am sorry for not being able to stop the pain for my brother.
53. I am sorry for not being able to be there for my brother.
54. I am sorry for leaving my brother all alone.
55. I am sorry for being different.
56. I am sorry for not following my dreams.
57. I am sorry for following in my uncle’s footsteps.
58. I am sorry for not being good enough.
59. I am sorry for not continuing.
60. I am sorry for giving up on everyone.
61. I am sorry that I cannot fight anymore.
62. I am sorry for being so tired.
63. I am sorry for having no motivation.
64. I am sorry for not being able to do anything right.
65. I am sorry for giving everyone a hard time.
66. I am sorry for giving everyone false hope.
67. I am sorry for “throwing in the towel”.
68. I am sorry everyone has to go through this.
69. I am sorry everyone has to deal with this.
70. I am sorry everyone had to deal with me.
71. I am sorry everyone.
72. I am sorry to my brother.
73. I am sorry to my mother.
74. I am sorry to my father.
75. I am sorry to my other brother.
76. I am sorry to my two sisters.
77. I am sorry to my two other brothers.
78. I am sorry to my four nieces.
79. I am sorry for not being here for my nieces.
80. I am sorry to my friends.
81. I am sorry to my family.
82. I am sorry to my favorite cousin.
83. I am sorry to my “aunt” Anne.
84. I am sorry for being so stupid.
85. I am sorry for being me.
86. I am sorry for being “emo”.
87. I am sorry for not being able to handle life.
88. I am sorry for not being able to handle the difficult times.
89. I am sorry for letting myself go.
90. I am sorry for letting my dreams diminish.
91. I am sorry for forgetting my goals.
92. I am sorry for forgetting my wishes
93. I am sorry for not giving everyone enough time.
94. I am sorry for letting my future vanish.
95. I am sorry for rejecting love.
96. I am sorry for rejecting kindness.
97. I am sorry for rejecting compassion.
98. I am sorry for only accepting pain.
99. I am sorry for only accepting hurt.
100. I am sorry for giving up.