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I’ve been having a relatively good time, up until now.
To start off I would like to say I’m emo, both in the cutting way and I dress that way as of now.
I like this one guy (not my ex) and well lets just say he’s popular. I’ve like him since he first talked to me and well when he’s at school and with his friends he acts all weird but when its just the two of us he helps me with something I’m struggling on or we just talk.
So I don’t know what’s going on.
Another reason is I get called numerous things nowadays. The biggest thing(s) I get called are: Dyke, ****, and many numerous things but Lesbian whould have to be the biggest thing that’s being spread.
I’ve tried fitting in, that didn’t work and well being myself isn’t good enough.
People call me a freak, loner, lesbian, weird, etc.
And you know what that’s what I’ll give them.
I’m getting a haircut (emo hair so a bob or something) and wear heavy makeup.
See what they think of me now.
If anything else happens I’m done, game over, closing the curtains, fin, das va danya, the end.
I’m done.
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What is it that you want?
to die in all honesty
If that is what you truly want why have you not done that yet?
What’s that mean being your self not good enough. Youe game just startin
I’ve tried numerous times already but I want a clean way to die and make it look accidental. Plus I’ll never be good enough, everyone here is a person you would see in a magazine and all have high expectations in what someone looks like. And me, I’m not like them I like Tim Burton stuff and bands like Black Veil Brides and My chemical romance while they like Justin Bieber and Eminem. I’m not cut out for anything, what do I have to offer this world?
An absurdity like I should just suffer, always have so might as well let it stop here…
O_o I love My Chemical Romance <3… Well do you know why you don't like Justin bieber and Eminem? Also why do you like My Chemical Romance while others don't? Both of you have a reason for each type of music… If you find out why you like your music… Give them the same reason… Not by telling "I like them because of this this and this…" but instead drag them slowly… Maybe you like the chords? Some songs have similar chords.. Get a song with a similar chord and keep changing as it grows similar to your songs… That is just an example however and may not work, you know why you love your bands… They just don't know your reason… I'm sure if they had the same reason as you they would also love your bands…. A clean way to die? Hmm…. Seemingly since you want a way to die that seems like an accident perhaps you still care of something in life? If I was to suicide I would not care if my friends knew I did it on purpose.. I'd be already dead why should I care? Oh well… May peace be upon you.. die painlessly and may your death be certain with no errors.
I’m not saying tht music is the reason I want to commit its cuz everyone at the skool is either prep or jock or girly or w.e and I’m a freak to them
Just be who you are fuck them make me a promise emo head wait untill you hit youe 20′ ok
ok, thx
High school bloody sucks everyones fucken evil i hated it and i know its heaps hard but dont let them break you
It’s gotta suck…but you have a birthright. Why base your leaving on everyone else who isn’t you….it’s like you’re speaking for everyone else saying “she’s weird, we don’t want her…ah, let’s do her in”. It’s kind of absurd. Why not just consider how you want to be and feel without fear about what anyone else thinks…cause what anyone else thinks/feels doesn’t mean bunk. I’d encourage you to cultivate the stamina and strength to just be who you are without any drama. I was different from ppl in my school….so what. Good luck.
you might fell like you dont fit in in school but every1 feels like that, i did now im in college and ive met people like me in my course and i now have to very close friends, something i have never had. and i rapa nd pop music. you are not alone….. just please dont base your perception on life on what you c at school, school is absolute shit if your any way diff. i know.
The music was just an example, you can use the same method with characteristics of people such as (another example) your school mates.
Honestly you think your different from the preppy kids and jocks.. I being one of them .. You really arnt you think we have it all … Nice cars, Hot girls,Parties… We really dont. I hate talking to people they annoy me but they alwas try to talk to me….. I only have about 2 real friends i like and the rest i just talk to so i dont come off as mean ( But i could really care less ) . But Ive started turning to drugs more and more and honestly its great. I guess thinking of killing yourself is scary but all you need to do it control your emotions. Hopefully one of these days i take the wrong drug. A quick painless way to die…. easy. The only thing holding me back is my mom once she is gone ill be happy.
Oh yeah and my father he alwas said dont be surprised if you come home and im hanged.. or ODed on drugs…. I mean i loved him but he wanted to kill himself so i didnt try to stop him once someone has an idea it will never go away.. 2 years later he finally jumped off a parking garage.. I heard the news at night and i didnt cry. But i loved him so much. I guess im just a emotionless person it has its advantages
Ok, thx guys, really 🙂
Most welcome, and good luck! May your life be filled with peace and go out better then you expect!
@diamondonalandmine, you can email me, I’m into everything you are. MCR 4 life, and Tim Burton is amazing.
Thank you for agreeing with me, love both with a passion 🙂