I’m contemplating suicide.
I visualize my plan frequently, and I can almost feel how it is going to feel when I hold the gun up to my skin.
With tears streaming down my face, I will take the deepest breath that I’ve ever taken in my life, and pull the trigger.
There will be no goodbye letters, and there will be no explanation given. A simple “I’m sorry, please forgive me” will be all.
Sometimes the pain is so severe I feel like screaming.
I haven’t been able to go through with it yet, but as time drags on I feel myself getting closer and closer to the edge.
I just want to fade away into nothing.