ok. so i am a wife and mom. not happy at all. my life sucks. my kids (14 and 16) and husband are all about themselves. i get no respect (like rodney dangerfield). all i do is give give give and get shit in return. nothing i do is good enough. i had a great job and lost it by getting laid off. i have not had a luck in finding another good paying job. i was a paralegal and the bread winner in my family. i am working again but everybody still thinks that i can just buy buy buy and get get get when i am not making the money that i was. nobody cares. i put on a front to make it seem like everything is ok. it is so the opposite. i getno say in my household. my boss blames and finds fault in everything i do. i just cant get a break. i just wanna end my life but in a way that i will not look like a suicide. my family can do better if i am not here. i have taken out life insurances on me so in the event they will be fine. i am on antidepressants, but i still feel the same. i cant sleep so i am on a sleep medicine. i am always depressed. i just want to end my miserable life. any help would be appreciated.
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Well if you were my mom, I wouldn’t want you to commit suicide. That’s for sure.
This is a tough one, I can imagine how hard it is. My mom hasn’t had a very easy motherhood or relationship with my father. But I feel she is living better days these days. We’ve gotten through the toughest times in our family and now we all stay close and the love finally seems for real. ….but my father is still the essence of her torture! lol
I guess my point is that it takes seeing this life all the way to the end, if we are ever going to potentially be at peace with ourselves…potentially
You cant commit suicide. Do you know how scarred your kids will be? They could fall into depression and follow your lead. Do you want that for your children? Sure, they act like because theyre teenagers! All teens are that way. You just have to show them whos boss. My mom is the same way, but i love her and my family would fall apart without her. Youre family would too! You have to stay strong for your children because thats what being a mom is all about. And for your job, theres going to be asshats like that everywhere, but you have to learn to deal with it. Life is hard, but you got to make the best of it. Stay strong love, for you teens. It might not seem that way, but those two need you. 🙂
sorry your so depressed, I have 4 kids and 3 of them really hardly ask me for anything, sometimes I feel bad they never ask for anything an so I have to almost beg them to go pick out something they want because I feel guilty about it. BUT my oldest son-18 expects me to pay for everything , wants the most expensive clothes and on top of that I have to pay his car insurance which is 140 a month and he is also constantly asking me to take him to burger king all the time and the only income I get is a disability check for all the mental illnesses i have..if I got angry an said anything he would tell me I was crazy lolz..Latley tho I have got fed up of it all and now I make him help me clean the entire house top to bottom once a week and now I also tell him look I can not and will not spend over a certain amount. I do feel beter now with these new rules and If i were you I would give your kids a limit and say look this is IT an unless its a life or death situation don’t let them have any more, also make them help you around the house if they don’t already.
http://whatcomfamilies.com/2013/05/11/the-invisible-mother/
I am sad (in part) because I’m not and never will be a wife and mother. You, and others, remind me that that’s not the be all end all of happiness. I am “free” to do what I want, but your family at least gives you some importance, a reason to be here, a purpose… and I envy that. Maybe we should trade lives for a week and see how eager we’d be to take it back? Oh I do like my job though and wouldn’t want to trade you there. I hope you find a way to feel appreciated at work (maybe find a different job) and home (not sure of your options there but maybe you can get through to your husband first and get his support with the kids? …is that a pollyanna approach? sorry). Good luck to you. I hope you find the strength to fight and the means to create a happier life for yourself.
Your kids need you. It may not seem like it, but they do. You remind me a lot of my mom. I lost her. I havnt had a mother figure sense I was five. Don’t take your life. Your kids need you. Please.