I just can’t take waking up and feeling like shit before I even get out of bed anymore. I’ve got my goodbye notes written, I’ve got 200 and something nyquil sleep aid pills, a bottle of maximum strength cough meds and a bottle of whiskey. I dont want to mess this up by waking up. I need to know if this will put me down for good. Im 6’7″ 175 pounds, very skinny. Will this work or do I need more pills? My deadline is tomorrow night. I still have one last goodbye I have to do before I go.
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Hey, what is it that makes you feel so bad? It has to be something major to want to take your own life. Can you not talk to anyone close about this?
*as deep a voice as i can muster* Don’t do it.
I’m not looking to be talked or of this. I’ve talked to enough psychiatrist and therapist. I can’t even talk to my mother cause she wants me to tell her when I decide to do it so she could join me. All I want to know is if this is enough. I honestly don’t care and I need these damn thoughts to be gone forever. I’ve dreamt of killing myself for such a long time, sleep used to bring me peace. Now, the dreams in which I die are the only thing I have. If my mind wants it that bad, who am I to not give it what it wants.
I’m sorry. I don’t have anyone to talk to either, that’s why I’m here. I think about doing it all the time but I think I’m afraid of the unknown (how will it feel, what’s after death). The only thing that has kept me from it, over the last 30 years, is thinking tomorrow could be better or at least different. I hope your mind finds peace within and you don’t go through with it. Tomorrow may be different.
There is no way that’ll work. At the most, it’ll box your kidneys a bit.
Yeah OTC meds are highly unreliable at best you will wake up in the ICU with tubes protruding from your mouth and nose… Most likely you will vomit before you can get all the pills down anyway….If medication is the way you want to go you’re going to need something prescribed from a doctor. If you can’t get them that way….you could always get them through silk road. I don’t want to encourage you but if your mind is set like mines then I know you won’t be discouraged…I just don’t want you to wake up in a worse position than you’re in