I just want to cry. I can’t. I want to be depressed. I can’t. I want to fall apart. I can’t. I don’t miss it, at all. I just… I can’t anymore. My life is pretty steady. Easy going. I laugh, smile, I’m generally happy I just want to break. Fall down. I just can’t cry. I’m not allowed. I won’t let myself. I can’t go back. I’ve learned a lot, seen a lot, done a lot. I just want to be a mess. I know that won’t fix anything. I’ve been holding on. Everyone around me is happy, I’m happy. Why do I want this, I honestly do not know. I don’t know where I was going with this. No one cares and if you do thanks. I’m better than I was so why do I want to go back. I don’t. I just want to cry.
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Then just do it, you can’t really deprive yourself of the feeling of sadness just because it caused misery in the past, if you feel like crying then do it, get if all out. Most of the time when you get it all out you feel hella better after it. Sometimes the pain in your chest reminds you that you’re still human.
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