To any this concerns to…
I have grown tired and frustrated of life that I cannot continue any longer, I have accepted the idea that I may well be forever alone during my stay in this unforgiving cesspool we call Earth, thus I found no other reason for me to continue living. I have had a good upbringing and life and for that I am thankful, but I cannot live simply for the sake of my family or friends. Life is pointless when you have no one to love. What is good about being alive if it’s not even worth living?
Funnily enough it took a story for me to fully realize that life is not about getting a degree in school or become financially successful. It is about giving care, when you give care to someone you find your life bearable even in the most hardest of times. I have loved people but have never been loved back, and for that I see no point in continuing on any longer.
My burial is of no big concern to me and you may dispose of my body whichever method you deem fit, however I would prefer that I be cremated, the prospect of my ashes being thrown away to the sky is more peaceful than having worms eat whatever is left of my body. Before my body is disposed I would like the following:
-Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Any usable organs in my system be harvested and given to the closest person who needs it most
-         My stuff is to be given to the poor, I don’t need them anymore.
-Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â Â My laptop be formatted and given to my brother, as he will need it more than I do.
And with that, I bid you all fare thy well. I’m sorry towards anyone who may be saddened by my death and wish you all a happy life, and I hope none of you fell as low as I did. But before I finish this, I’d like to thank Scott, Adrian, Matt, Josh, James, Aaron, and Anthony. You guys are the only real friends I’ve ever had, and I wouldn’t give anything to take back all the times we spent together. Thank you for all the support, the encouragement, the laughs, and the fun times.
Toujours et a jamais…
Ray
“My legs are dangling off the edge… The bottom of the bottle is my only friend… I think I slit my wrists again and now I’m gone gone gone gone…â€
4 comments
May you find peace, brother, whether in life or in death. You are one of the brave ones who struggle to live in a world empty of so much that truly matters, love being the highest. I don’t know you, but I send you love all the same.
stay man. just stay. your homies will miss you. everyone will. nothing i say can change your mind but dig deep dude and find the strength to fight on. i was a regular guy i know what its like. whatever you do. do it in peace my friend.
I know your peril friend…I hope that you find the peace you seek and find solace.
I have to say more. I care about you, even though I don’t know you. I know how you feel. I’ve been there. I’m not going to give you platitudes but I am sincere when I say that I send you love. I don’t need to know more than what you’ve written in order to care deeply for you in such pain.