to start it off, like most people i had real fucked up childhood which i guess has caused me all my other problems. Im a junior in highschool and recently i lost my bestfriend of many many years. he slowly turned all my other friends against me, and among other things im forced to eat lunch a lone. i guess that doesn’t sound soo bad. though my main problem, is that i just have this overwhelming feeling of unfulfillment. basically if i ever see anything on television, or hear people talking about parties or really just doing anything, i imediately think, yea im never gonna do anything like that, im just a fucking loser. how would you propose that i “beat” this. personally i sorta just wanna kill myself. i think ( i don’t believe in god/heaven) i would be a thousand times more happy to be inside my thoughts, in death, than be in my meaningless unfulfilling life. so go ahead. humor me.
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Well…I’m pretty sure if you kill yourself you won’t have thoughts anymore seeing as your brain stops functioning…so you have to stay alive to be inside those thoughts. I know changing your thought patterns is difficult (from experience) but it’s possible. With proper therapy and restructuring of your brain you could change yourself around, maybe make new friends, and see if you could make a new life from there. But you’d have to want it. And no one can make you want it. Are you laughing? I’m trying to humor you.
Why not travel around? Do something interesting before you die, start a charity fund?
I’ll humour you a bit. So we never lose friends, only discover the true colors. Anyways maybe tou could go to sit with someone else? And hey think of the wiorst thing that could happen? It’s not so bad is it? Of couse we would be all happier if dead but hey seriously you’re not dead, I’m not dead so you want to stay thinking that or move on
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