I’m in my late thirties and I still can’t believe some of the stuff I go through. I keep hoping things will change but they don’t. I’ve tried everything I can but I still end up getting hurt or disappointed. I thought about suicide before and never tried it but I think all my other options are out. I can’t keep fighting and fighting. Nothing is getting better. I’ve been doing this too long. At this point if it didnt change by now its going to.
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What kind of stuff are you going through?
I can’t make it out of my pathetic financial situation. I can’t keep up with my bills. And for the third time a girlfriend is leaving me because I don’t make enough money. People always take advantage of my kindness. People that treat me wrong usually end up with a better life than me. The results for the last 10+ years. I had enough
This is going to be choppy… I apologize for that in advance.. lol
Sometimes you have to sift through the chaff to find the wheat when it comes to relationships. Not every girl is going to have compatible values as you do – think about it like this… if the relationship ended over money, would it be fair to say she valued money over who you were? If so, that’s more to do with the girl than with you, and not everybody holds the same set of values…
What does it mean to have a better life, though?
Have things going well for them. careers. financial stability. good relationships. Every women wants a man thats financially stable and I am not. don’t know if I ever will be at this point. I’m tired of trying. I’m drained all around. The more I talk or think about the worse it gets. I cant stop thinking about it.
You can’t stop thinking about it, because it sucks, and needs to be solved… but you want to stop thinking about it, because it sucks, and seems unsolvable… but if you don’t think about it, you can’t solve it. Unless, of course, the highly unlikely key to the solution, is to pretend the problem doesn’t even exist, and approach life as if that problem has never existed. I’m pretty sure that doesn’t work. I’ve tried. All it ever does is make you feel less miserable for a while, but then you feel worse when you realize all the time you wasted on trying not to think about what you needed to solve, which not thinking about it, can’t help you solve. !!
I wish i could verbalize the rest of the chain reaction of thoughts on this topic, but i have to self-censor here, because verbalizing those thoughts would definitely upset some people who want to see things differently than what my realism tells me.
I wish it was a better way to get out of it but it’s not. I’ve tried praying, exercising and even alcohol. Nothing works. If this was the first time I’ve been here then I would have more hope. After going through the same thing over and over again you begin to think that’s the way things are supposed to be. And if this is supposed to be my life I don’t want to live anymore like this.
I thought by now my life would be better but it’s not and I don’t see it getting any better. All hope is pretty much gone.
Keep the faith my friend. The lord will help you but you need to keep the faith. keep fighting!!! don’t give up!!! 🙂
I have been keeping the faith for so long. I don’t know why my prayers aren’t getting answered. I’m usually a fighter but I don’t have much fight left. Prayer for me because I’m really at my wicks end.
I think it’s a myth that every girl wants someone who’s financially successful. What about good old fashioned anarchiso-communist gals? Tree-hugging hippie chicks who just want to chain themselves to trees with you? I’m betting the Médecins Sans Frontières doctors have a few gals who don’t care much about money. I’ve dated a few girls like that, but they can be far and in between sometimes. They do exist. But to find them, you gotta get your house in order, so to speak, and don’t give up. 🙂
I see where you’re trying to go with this but that’s not experience. The thing is I’m trying to get my house in order but not working out for me. I wish I could say I wasn’t trying hard enought but I am and nothing is working.
By that, I mean mentally – it’s hard not to compare and contrast when it comes to this stuff, but what it all boils down to is that this economic shit is all a huge artifice. We’re simians who trade paper for bananas. One range of experience isn’t all ranges of possible experiences – sometimes you have to go explore areas you’ve never explored to find new things. And there’s always something new.