I don’t want to jump to any conclusions but I think she is gone.
We were emailing back and forth and she said she was going to die that day and I haven’t received an email from her since. I also haven’t seen her on the site since that day….. I don’t know if she has passed but from what she said in her emails to me she was pretty adamant about wanting to die…. so I’m inclined to believe she has….If she has indeed passed on I just want to say R.I.P and I hope that she has truly found the peace and comfort she needed. She sent me a picture and she was a very beautiful woman on the inside and out. If she has passed…. It’s sad that the world lost such a beautiful person.
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I’m sorry to hear this, my thoughts are with her wherever or how ever she is. RIP. My sincerest condolences, may she have found peace at last
Yeah…….Its always sad when a fellow SP’er checks out….I guess that’s the way things go though
I had never really grasped the reality of suicide until a friend had committed the act back last December. It was right before I was hospitalized so it made it even harder. Suicide has become something so ‘normal’ to me that I’ve become desensitized to the gravity of it. I’m still in shock over what happened and it’s very hard for me to believe that she killed herself. She was here one moment and gone the next, I knew she was depressed but she had never expressed an immediate desire to die. I can’t believe that she killed herself, even the words itself seem surreal, she *killed* herself. She’s in the ground now permanently, I’ll never hear from her again, she’s gone forever. Forever. And she did that to herself. It’s hard for me to think about. She took everything she had going for her, all the people that cared for her, all her thoughts, her memories, her talents and took them all away. I don’t believe for an instant that suicide was the right choice for her, but I can never blame her for doing that, I know all too well what it feels like to be so far gone. She didn’t want to hurt anyone or mean to, but it’s something that will always affect me. I don’t feel guilty or blame myself, I just feel kind of empty. Like part of me went with her, as cliche as that sounds. She doesn’t exist anymore. I still can’t believe it.
I’m sorry you had to go through that terrible loss of such a great person…. It’s sad when anybody dies….Regardless of their legacy, character, social status, and wealth….The loss of life is a sad thing…. I have never been directly affected by a suicide but one of my cousins did it. He was young though I think 11 or 12 but I didn’t know him at all to feel any type of loss….It was sad don’t get me wrong but I wasn’t affected by it….I know it probably won’t mean much in the reality of the situation but at least she is at peace now. Whatever hell tormented her to the point she desired death is gone now….. I find that to be a “good” thing about suicide….regardless of the sorrow and pain it causes… at least there is a little comfort in knowing that her pain is forever gone…..