I will try to keep it short but I believe some background is necessary, also this has probably been asked before many times on this website but I would appreciate if someone could give me insight about my particular case.
I am suicidal, no questions I don’t know when or where but it will happen soon.
I need some advice.
My family is very loving and caring the only thing that has kept me from committing suicide so far is my family.
I could not have asked for a better family, I know what I am doing is selfish trust me but there is only so much I can sacrifice.
I know they would be devastated, also they will blame themselves and each other.
So my question is : What is the best way to minimize the damage after I am gone.
Should I leave a note? In the note should I ask them to seek counselling? Should I tell them the truth about why I did it?
I was thinking I could fake medical documents and say I was terminally ill (due to confidentiality rules they can never verify this with the doctor)
Also, I don’t think they would like friends and acquaintances to find out I committed suicide (everyone has always looked up to them I think they would feel much better if I got hit by a truck or something. So should I somehow write that in the note? Is that possible?
To come up with something else for the cause of my death so they don’t have to tell others what happened.
There is a lot more questions I have, for example I have outstanding university loans, and I am able to pay it off completely if I work for a few months. But then I know that it will hurt them because they think their actions have caused me to not ask money from them (my parents are relatively wealthy and can afford my tuition but it just never felt right to ask them for money, this has caused a lot of problems actually)
Anything else, please share, help, I need it more than ever. Nobody was able to help me to live (they tried and I appreciate that) please help so my parents can cope with the grief.
Also, I believe this post is in accordance with the rules and regulations of the site since I am not asking about a particular suicide method.
Also, I really appreciate people trying to help, I really do but right now I am past that, so please ASSUME there is no other way and give me advice on the questions.
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The best way for a family to deal with the suicide of one of its members is for to never find out it was suicide.
There are three reliable ways of killing yourself: gun (preferably shotgun) to the head, being run over by a train, and falling from a height. That last one wouldn’t be that hard to make look like an accident.
Thanks! that never actually occurred to me for some reason. It is still very difficult to jump off tall enough building that you are not supposed to be on anyway.
Also they know about my depression and also know that I once had suicidal tendencies but they think I am all better now. But I know if I do it they will definitely know it was suicide. I don’t think there is anyway I can make it look like an accident at this point. So I guess that option is off the table.
But thanks a lot!