I just want to kill myself but when i’m about to take the pills i just can’t. It’s frustrating and i hate myself. I just can’t anymore
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It’s not your time yet
There’s something that’s refraining you from killing yourself and it’s self evident: common sense. You sense the dangers of attempting suicide through such an unreliable method such as pills, if you do that you’ll die slowly, painfully and surely of liver damage. Also there’s a sensible part of you that recognizes the fact that perhaps things may get better and that there *is* a chance of recovery. If suicide was the right choice for you it wouldn’t be stressful.
I know this feeling, the compulsion to take the pills and end it and the fear doing so causes. I am still here (just barely) but understand your situation. When or if you decide to proceed, start with “liquid courage” in the form of the alcohol of your choice, smash up the pills and wash them down with wine so they are less likely to be vomited up, play some loud music and let yourself be carried away – that’s my plan at least. You may need an anti-emetic to help keep the medicine down, but I balance the same life/loss/fear dynamic you do everyday. Am sure I will not see the end of 2013.
you might want to reconsider changing your method in committing suicide 🙂