I lost my job. Â Or I should say, I was fired. Â But I lied about it and said I was let go. Â Why? Because my parents made me this way. They made me so terrified to tell them the truth that I have resorted to lies for years. Â I lied about failing out of school and that turned into the most terrifying experience of my life. Â And now I’ve lied about this. Â But they are going to find out. There are circumstances surrounding this, and they will find out. Â And when that happens, I don’t think I can endure the consequences. Â I am an adult, but treated as a child. Â There is nothing for me anymore. Â No significant other, barely any friends, and parents who expect so much from me but I will never satisfy their dreams. Â You may think something like this is easy to overcome in time, but you do not understand the abuse I receive. It has made me to feel like I am nothing. Â Unemployed, mid-twenties, no prospects. I used to be told that I was meant to do great things in life, but that was a lie in itself. Â I used to believe in God, but not anymore. Â People have been telling me for ten years now that things will get better. Â Ten years later, and they haven’t. They’ve only gotten worse.
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I remember my mother used to always yell at me and silent treat me for weeks if I did something wrong. And then I lied about everything. With whom I was, where I went or didn’t…I wanted that, okay no one would praise me but no one would be mad at me either. No one would tell me why couldn’t I have been better. Now I can’t ever express myself to anyone. And getting caught, it’s great while it lasts. But then you do it again.
My advice. Just be more honest. It’s slow progress, but hey you’ll get there if you want to.
I think, anyone stronger than their mind can really do greater things than life. I mean. Many just have some problem, me too, and if we just let it go, maybe we could do what we dreamed of or we didn’t have dreams than make something up and follow trough with that descision. God is great. I don’t believe either. I understand when people do. You’re less alone then, because someone always watches over you but no. Sometimes I guess you need more time, ten years…twenty years…thirty years and then if things still don’t get better then you can join the rest of the losers club 😀
Thanks Resu… really appreciated your comment.
You are superwelcome. And hey, not like there is no other jobs in the world. Not like all will fall down because of few…or one too many lies. Just keep trying and I guess eventually you’ll find yourself in the right place. And it’s just life