There is nothing else i an think about now, than not being here. I just.. I don’t want to be here anymore, i don’t feel alive, Â i don’t feel like i belong here. Lately i just feel like i am staying alive for my parents, because i do know that they would be devestated if they lost me – even though it in many ways, would probably be much easier.. My mother said that she couldn’ take this no longer. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to think anymore. I just wish that i could disapear away from this planet. Everything would be so much easier.
I can’t even cry anymore. I’m not sad, nor am i happy. I am just.. here. Empty i guess. No feelings left in my body
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*hug*
I feel the same
This feeling of not belonging WILL change. And yes, they would be devastated, more than you can ever know. I feel this, and hear you. *hugs*
me too!