I related to a friend.. the background events that have caught my attention in my life…Â and he said ” If your life was a show.. i’d tune in to see what happens”
Against all odds.. i’ve come into contact with the one person i wanted to meet in a city of over a million….
I posted a lonely hearts message based on an encounter months old and i received a reply.
Someone i had little hope of seeing.. who approached me with a unusual confession.
So i have another reason to stick around for while..
If only for the entertainment of others 🙂
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Aw Roak, this is good to hear. I hope it works out with you guys. 🙂
@Perse
Thanks kindly.. I’m relatively skeptical about the whole thing.. Logically and Emotionally i read the whole situation in different ways.. I know if i get emotionally invested.. i risk losing control. In theory.. it’s a friendship.. i’m really just curious about her.. to see what she’s like..
So yes.. no feelings of affection for her.. none at all. I’ll keep repeating that.
Was sorry to hear that you’re having.. much more serious issues. I wasn’t sure if i should even post something that seems so frivolous when compared to some of the other things on here. Unfortunately, I couldn’t think of what to offer in terms of advice apart from luck… and i liked your music choices of course 🙂
Nothing wrong with that. Good luck. 🙂
Thanks. Haha, glad that somebody liked those tunes. I’m not really sure what’s going on with me, but I can probably find a way somehow…
I wonder at what point hope turns to despair..
I mean is it a growing feeling.. a gradually increasing noise…
or is it a single sound.. that becomes constant as it repeats…
or does one change to the other in an instant… one dreaded moment of realization.
Introspection while swimming with emotions just feels like rot.
It also gives rise to shitty analogies and self indulgent rambling.
I’m never sure how I feel. I suppose I can’t entirely quench the optimist inside me. Some days are worse than others, obviously. If I had money, I could focus on doing things I want for once. That would give me hope, at least for a while. One can never outrun oneself, but enough distractions can keep a person going. Friendship wise? That’s a tough one. It’s always discomfiting when things don’t work out as planned. But, as long as a person knows their self-worth, that they ARE worth something, perhaps even failed attempts at friendship can be moved past. (I don’t know if that’s what you’re talking about and I hope for your sake that it isn’t, I’m just exploring the options of why a person might feel despair.)
I’ve felt deep despair, and yet, somehow I still see a glimmer of light in the darkness. Am I a moron? Is there nothing for me? I don’t know, but somehow, the lamp keeps burning, no matter how many rocks keep falling from that avalanche onto my path. Maybe one will strike me, but until then, I keep moving forward, step by step.
Was wondering if you were up..
I’ve been trying to come up with something for about 30 minutes now and words just aren’t there for me. Thanks for the reply.. i’m too scattered right now to think but it’s nice to have words to read that i haven’t written.