So.. Idek where to start.. I was given up for adoption when I was 3 months old.. I was adopted at age 1… I’ve lived in may places.. My parents abuse me all the time… Like all the time.. & they homeschool me.. The night before I turned 14 they beat me up really bad… ( less then a week ago )… Told me they wish they never adopted me and that I’m a fat skank… Idek.. I self harm alot really badly, on my wrists, and thighs & Idk what to do… As far as I can remember I was never really downright sad or very happy. Always just in between.. Then in 5th grade the depression started.. I got really sad..
I have some friends( actually alot ), but they don’t understand, I have nobody to talk to I’m alone…. I listen to them rant, but they never wanna listen to me.. I feel like they hate me.. I get anonymous texts saying I should die and hate on my ask.fm ! My parents don’t let me do shit, and everything is shit, and I self harm like shit, and just shit… Does anyone understand.. I’ve OD’d 3 times it never worked and latley I’ve just wanted to kill myself …. & I honestly think I should…
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your life style is like mine but mine were with my real parents why dont you when you go to school tell social servies ask the school to allow you to use their phone don’t let this get you down and if your friends don’t like you then fuck them get new ones i’ll be the one you can come to no worries but i cant say jackshit bout self harm im still doing it but i can say im fostered so things can get better you just need to tell people make them listen
I don’t go to school, I”m homeschoold…. :/
i no someone who went through thisn shes my best friend….I self-harm just as she does and i understand the pain shes has gone through. Ive seen all this all the time and my home life is not the best either, watching sll my family cry and fall appart never having anything living everyday wishing i wasent here, theres deffinalty only a couple of people i stay here because off, and there my friends….you shouldent give up your life becuase of 2 selfish people destroying it, tell someon enad make everything better your friends will understand and you will be in a ahppier place. Dont think about killing yourself just think about how happy you would be if you was in a diffrent place.
idk…. I can’t take the shit like wtf.. but thanks
Your situation is horrid. Your parents are narcissistic abusers. However, you have survived thus far and seem to be quite strong, just tired of it and unable to expend the energy to care. Hold on to that strength, focus on a career that you can work towards and start learning about it as much as you can online. The best advice I can give to any young person is, ‘Knowledge is Power’ … if you have a skill or knowledge that is useful to earn money, you will always be able to rely on yourself. Employers pay with cash, family pay with unredeemable IOU’s. You can leave home at 16 and get Austudy to finish your VCE… 24 months and you can be free 😉
I’ve just realised you could be elsewhere in the world… Hopefully there are government resources available.
Please listen to when I say that suicide is not the answer. As cliche as that sounds its true. Youve been through a lot and I can see (not literally) that its stayed in your mind and constantly brought up so you can’t heal and move on but let me tell you that whatever some asshole pain the butt fiend and hinderance to mankind little fuck that told you some pretty nasty things, is simply not the reason for you to end your life. Its your life and you havent lived, you’re still a young girl that may have a lot to offer the world and the thought that you could end that before it starts honestly hurts me. I wanted to die. Not to kill myself but to die and I feel ashamed because I didn’t go through a fraction of what you did. My stress came from constantly disappionting my family especially my mum. I’ve cried quietly and even cut myself once or twince but I stopped beacue it wasn’t right. I felt guilty.
Do you know what kept me going. It’s simple .God. that’s it. I am a muslim and we belive that life is a test . Even though bad things happen to good people those who live past it and thank God for the things most forget WILL be rewarded. My cutting was not allowed in the religiona nd I can’t describe the Mpunt of guilt i felt. Be strong. Be strong. If you want a friend (because yours dont seemvery attentive) my email address
hanItry@hotmail.co.uk
You poor thing. I feel your pain, and i am so sorry that you’ve had such a horrible upbringing. You are so young, you don’t deserve this. None of it. You are strong, you are still here, its time for you to change your life. Go to the authorities! Report your “parents”, show them your scars and wounds. They will help you get away from those retched people that adopted you. You don’t deserve to die, don’t let them keep harming you. Just TALK, to authorities, don’t be afraid. Best of luck, and remember, you are still here for a reason.
Guys the thing is. I love my mom so much. She never was like this. Baack when I was younger like 4 & 5, and my dad abused me she’d stand up for me. But he’s been hurting her too, and she’s afraid to go against him. I want to leave with out my brother or mom getting hurt too 🙁 & @hanity I will email you. Thanks.. I’m trying.. It’s been getting worse latley, things are screwwing up.. xc
I emailed you thankyoou, it means alot. I don’t feel guilty. i just feel guilty for being a fuck up. even when i was only 3 months i was unwanted by my biological mom..
I emailed you thankyoou, it means alot. I don’t feel guilty. i just feel guilty for being a fuck up. even when i was only 3 months i was unwanted by my biological mom..