bullied

There are two things that go together that I need to sort out. One is being bullied– I haven’t really been directly bullied. No one stop me in the hallbuoy spreads rumors. No one excerpt myself. I have and ask.fm and I am obsessed with it. I check it every minute of every hour of the day. now I’m going to tell you something and before you say I’m an attention seeker trust me I’m nogo tone day I decided I hated myself so much that I wrote some hate anonymously on my wall and responded defending myself as the answer . I did this for or a week or so until I pretended I want even the one writing the hate. I tricked myself into thinking I was a different person writing my hate. I don’t know why I did it, it’s not like I’m not yelling at used constantly for the things I keep saying to myself. The funny thing is I would never ever write that one someone else page. Only my own. A few of my “friends” stand up for me and others leave it alone. But what gets to me now is the things I read in other people’s answers about me, hate, or unintentionally mocking other people. That is the nature of the sight and I should deactivate my account but I just can’t. I’m too addicted. If you read this sentence, please just tell me why.