Lovesick.

I do not want to hurt people. But I do I do I do….
Great philosophers have told me that one isn’t good because of it’s words but one is good because it’s actions. (not a native English speaker, so do ou use it or what? Ignore this, just wanted to make sure I’m not wrong) Therefore I’m not good at all.
I’m a heatbreaker.
Because my heart belongs to some one else no one can have me now.
And You might say that this post is not supposed to be in suicidepoject but i honestly feel suicidal because I hurt people. I know how it feels to be rejected and putting someone though this pain is painful for myself as well. I know there is not much I can do because it’s not my fault after all, but… I don’t want to hurt people anymore…

Why do I have this kinda of beauty that atracts only those i don’t want to have in my life? Why those i want don’t seem to see the way those poor guys see? Why?

Why?

I only want Him
And why it doesn’t seem like He wants me???

Maybe I would reborn into simple girl who wouldn’t get much attention. A girl who would fall in love with a simple boy. Maybe my life wouldn’t be so complicated if I wasn’t me?
Tired. Tired. Tired…

I just want to love someone ho loves me back. I just ant to have a decent relationships with that person. Is that too much to ask???