i’ve always been a loner
that girl in the back of the room standing awkwardly by herself
i’m never going to end up with anyone. i am much too weird.
my best friend is sick of me. i have a suicide scare on a weekly basis.
except now i think i’m truly done.
my family life isn’t even horrid now. i’m getting along fine with them.
i have supposed friends.
but i am that person who is just constantly /there/
i don’t do anything
i can’t picture a future for myself
i am so done.
i think i want to drown myself in a bathtub, but i have to figure out how to do it so i don’t fight to breathe.
i have to figure out how to knock myself out or something.
2 comments
Don’t kill yourself!!! I know what it feels like to be like this. You will find someone who make you change your mind about your future. You may not believe it but it will happen!! And I’ll be your friend 🙂
you have so much too live for… every problem you have, you can change. You should feel lucky. Some of us dont have that luxury. but girl you can change. you can become happy. you can have a bright future, if you allow yourself to have! you can work on your social skills. you can work on your personality. like you said you even get along fine with your family. something i wish for. Take control and you can make it through xxx