Someone?

I DONT GIVE A FUCKING SHIT ANYMORE. I am done with everyone! Some people are so fucking hypocritical. Take my “best friend”. Apparently for example. She is a slut. If I did half the things she did she would be all bitchy but no. If she does it it’s ok. I’m sick of being played around so hurt innocent people becasue of it. I used to be so happy. Now I  can’t fucking take it. I do stuff even I cant explain and there’s no one here to help. Everyone has their own life to deal with but I can’t deal any longer. I can’t even go swimming with m friends next week because the scars on my shoulder my best friend is getting weird asking why and i telll her jus to leave it. I can’t sleep anymore and I barely eat. I’m working out agin becasue I just feel like a fat lumpb. I hate myself and everyone hates me for that. I look in the mirror and I don’t know what to feel I feel numb now and I just want to get revenge with everyone and then leave I’m so scared about everything and I don’t know what to do. I’m starving sad alone and I don’t know what I do. people at school would never understand. I have nothing to live for apart from small things. I feel if I died no one would care. They would pretend to but after a week they wouldn’t care. Im not going to go into detail about why I’m like this becasue it’s too hard but I’m scared of what I’m turning into and theres no way to control myself.