I don’t want a house,
I don’t want kids.
I’ve traveled, but I don’t think I like that
When I do nice things for people, I don’t feel good or bad about it.
I really feel like the thing that I look forward to most during the day is going back to sleep.
As far as age goes, I’m moving away from my prime, and I really don’t want to watch my body decay.
The combination of these things make me yearn for non-existence.
However, I don’t want to hurt my parents, so I feel like I’m waiting for them to die, so I can pass on with a good conscience. But, they could live a loooooong time.
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its difficult to emotionally disengage yourself from all the things you love, such as family. because it takes a lot to commit suicide. i know how you feel about seeing life as something pointless though. nothing seems to satisfy me either, no matter what i have or what i get, the depression is always there.
thanks for the comment kimmm
i’m here if you need anything.
I’m waiting too. It’s going to take a long time, a lot of suffering and clawing along the way, but I suppose the goal of the eternal sleep is always present at the end.
And just maybe we’ll find something that takes our mind off of it, gives us a reason to live.
Ha…
thanks poisontongue
its the feleing of numbness, it sucks but a little good can come from it :\
I’ve considered murder suicide… LIke we could all go out together in flames one big happy family. My parents have a clause in their will, upon some sort of untimely death, for me to be taken in for a psychiatric evaluation and 72 hour hold. Getting old sucks. Live it up, as soon as I’ve made my decision about giving it a go, I’ll let you know how it works out. Good Luck.