I had a violent car accident this night. The car was up on his side, i got out through the window – i think, i don’t actually know. I got out. It was my fault, ambulance came, and shit. After all the voices, the mess, the silence, the discussion, one thought only is in me, i want to share it with you.
After death there’s only what there was before it, but without you’re eyes watching.
A picture does not always have a meaning that goes beyond the simple watching; the same should be for life.
The meaning of life is therefore to keep watching, so to oppose to death; and death is not -here trust me- the concept we all have of sadness, of leaving, or else, relief and peace: this is the DEATH OF OTHERS. The truth about the DEATH OF YOURSELF is that nobody and nothing changes after you’re gone (like you have never been there) and it is Disgusting, never to be able to see again.
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Yeah, we don’t get the last laugh. When you think about it, no one does.
I kinda desire the erasing of my presence, past and future…
Perfectly said: we don’t get the last laugh. It may seem so, and it seemed to me too, considering the effort and the courage required to commit suicide: after all that, you think that causing your own death is an act of value. You think it’s impressive, it’s forbidden, it’s terrible and biting but it isn’t: nothing changes.
Nothing changes. Nothing changes.
Benna – I’m glad you seem to be okay. At least, you’re still posting on here. That must have been horrible…
I like you, you’re another of the philosophers around here. I hope you’ll be well soon.
Thank you! and you’re one of the kind-hearted that keep this site alive. It was bad at first, but now i feel that my life changed a little bit, i kind of defied the spiral of depression.
Though it may sound strange, i wish you all have a car accident too (without fractures!) because it makes you understand how unlikely is to remain alive…and what is unlikely, is precious!
Hah. I’ve been in near death situations before. Not car accidents, and I’d rather avoid that, heh. I do understand what you mean, though. It changes you.
Hopefully you can escape from depression. I was in a mental ‘rut’ for a few years, but I was able to overcome this when I realized that I truly was thinking especially negatively, not realistically. Now, I’ve become more apathetic. It helps.
I’ve had a few close calls in my time, and they do tend to catalyze epiphanies.
I like this post.
Bender from Futurama said it best (in his moment of bitter despair and crisis): “i wish everyone else was dead!”