Unclean

6 months. I was clean for 6 months. Not so much as a scratch on my body and now my arms are covered with my sin. I knew relapse was painful, but never did I realize how bad it truly can be. The disappointment. The shame. The hatred I feel for myself. I came so far…for this? To end up right where I was 6 months ago?….. I’d be a liar if I said I didn’t miss it. Welcome back my old friend. I truly hate you.