what to do when your out of options

This world sucks u need money. To live and survive. Or u loose. Everything … what else is next..now I can’t aford Counsling. Or other. Bills. Child support Probation. Etc ether way
Its a looseing. Battle. Any way I look at it ..I’d rather die than be in jail. I can’t even. Find a job after I got busted by the state revenue. Board. I understand why Jesus let the state kill him. And didn’t run ….. Lord I lift my empty hands to you o Lord