As easy as it was for you to call me those names is as easy as the tears came. He and I are the fat ones of the family. Only when your stuff are missing then there is a big meeting. No one else is important. In a doublestandard household it is hard for me to find peace. Is is that gender has anything to do with a crime commited, the crime stays the same even if the criminal is a woman/man. The funny thing is I didn’t even eat your the pancakes and eggs. I hate standing there in a line like i’m about to be stoned so much that I just thought hey let’s get this over with “I ate it”. Next thing you know i’m the most disrespectful daughter and I really need to move out. Over eggs, Eggs! I hope they tasted really good to the hungry person who ate them. So all this drama would at least result in a satisfied stomach. I want to go away and be free of all of this. Her solution is to place me into an even more oppressive house, to give us some space for our realtionship to mend. Ha! I will never forgive you if you send me there. There will be no realtionship. I will hate you forever. Hypocrites are the worst kind of people. You are a smart, devious one. You will push me over the edge if you keep speaking and treating me like this. I am done with just about everything, I blame you. I think about suicide often. Nothing makes me happy anymore. The pain hurts. I wish my life could be a Hallmark movie. I wish I could move to another country and meet new people and find another family. I feel trapped. I catch the bus at 6:11 am, get to school by 7:00-7:15 and leave at 2:30,get home by 4:00. On saturdays I stay home, on sundays I have sunday class and get home about 7. I go nowhere and do aboslutely nothing. I am alone, miserable and always cold. My back hurts from the stress. I’m working my butt off trying to get straight A’s for you. I coud care less about school or grades. But I want you to be proud to say my Daughter , to be abe to brag about me. The way you are treating me is very hurtful. When you pass I hope I remember everything but this. I hit, kick, and punch myself just so for a couple I seconds I can feel other pain besides the phycological one you are inflicting on me. I want to die, I really want to die right now. The way to talk to me and act towards me make me want to destroy myself, i feel like I deserve this treatment and I want to give myself more. Im thinking about overdosing on some random pill. I used to tell myself that suicide was crazy, tha you would go to hell. Now im waking up to the reality that im already living hell. It hurts that it was so easy for you to turn on me. I hope I can go away somewhere better. I wish you’d put me up for adoption. This has beent he worst birthday ever. I hope your happy. Good-Bye.
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wow, I feel bad for you. I hope you can realize there are some people like me who care.
trust me…. i know exactly how u feel… and i wish we didnt have to feel this way.. ever. i used to think that i would go to hell too… but now that i eally think about it.. we were both so wrong because, like u said, we r already living in it… god bless u and may he grant u a way out of this miserey inflicted upon us….
Thank the both of you for your support. I already feel somewhat better knowing there are people out there like me. I am not alone. thank you for caring.
i have had this account for nearly three years… but i havent used it in two. honey, happiness is just an illusion. trust me! idk how old u r, bt im telling u it wont get easier.
I’m 15. I will spend all my life looking for it. Thakns for the hope.
I remember being a kid, being lined up with my brothers, and I remember taking the blame just so it could be over, even though it wasn’t me. That’s what you get for being a kind person who cares about others. You get mistreated. The world is cold.
Do you believe in heaven?
Honey, they are wrong! Life gets better! Really it does! You are young, but you can get away from your parents and start a new life soon! It may seem hopeless, but you have to hold on. I like to think there’s an afterlife, but what if there isn’t? What if it’s worse? We were all put here for a reason, and I’m positive yours wasn’t to suffer and die at a young age! Think of this is a test, and soon it will be over, life can be so good! Wait till you grow up a little there is a whole world out there just waiting for you!