Why is it that I feel like I won’t get anywhere in my life? Why?
I try to do everything I can to provide for myself. But I’m only a teenager. ..
I work and put my money towards my truck and to help other people with what I can. But I feel like it’s never good enough. I feel like I can’t tell my mom I need to see a doctor. That I need new glasses. Or that I have cavities and need to see a dentist. Cause I ask for too much.I used to have a lot of thoughts of suicide then I met a girl who changed that. She has her thoughts too and I have to be strong for her. I can’t ever show that I hurt too! I love my relationship, but often times I feel like she doesn’t or she could care less. The thoughts have been returning more and more. I never cut myself until I took a blade from my girlfriend and wanted to see what it was like. I feel like I’m drowning.
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“But I feel like it’s never good enough.”
That’s right. YOU feel it. While it may seem hard to believe, you have decided that this is true. Others may seem to agree or disagree, but you have made this determination and you are the only one who can take the chance of deciding otherwise. This is a decision worth making.
G.W.
You know what,
You should tell your girlfriend about your struggles, but make sure she knows that you love her all the same. It hurts to keep secrets so long and to never share anything with others. Let some trusted friends know what you’re dealing with.
Her love for you should be conditioned on her evaluating you based on how you really are, and yet still loving you. Same with your love for her.
Dont keep any secrets from her. Secrets destroy a relationship (and in my case, a marriage). Maybe God put her in your life as support. You will know that as time goes on whether thats true or not.
Try doing normal things with her, going out, movies, fishing, biking, whatever. Maybe thats going to help take your pain away. Just have fun with her. Forget the blades (at least for now), so you can try a relationship out.
But by all means, respect her too.
Some people don’t know how to love, or are capable of it
(not saying this applies here).
Im just speaking of the general population.