I’m so tired of thinking.Everything has been magnified this week.
My bipolar disorder has put me into a pit of non-stop, agonizing depression.
My OCD has been getting worse. Just when I thought I had conquered my obsession with cleaning, it’s back and as strong as ever.
In the past week I’ve slept for about 7 hours. My insomnia is keeping me up. I’m too scared that if I fall asleep I’ll have nightmares.
To make it all worse, my brain won’t shut off. It won’t stop. I constantly have to pull myself away from the things my brain is making up. I feel so detached from reality.
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I could have written this. 🙁 I actually clutch my head sometimes and just beg for it to stop. And when even sleep isnt an escape, where can we go?
Here is 3:48am and I cant sleep… But I friend of mine was teaching how not to get attach to Ideas, memories, to keep thinking but … to pay NO attention to them… to let them flow … the stupid ideas come and you let them … Go … just fly … He told me remember Queen – Bohemian Rapsody last lines:
“Nothing really matters,
anyone can see
Nothing really matters
Nothing really matters to me
Any way the wind blows”
And well Im trying … hope it helps
My OCD has been getting worse. Just when I thought I had conquered my obsession with cleaning, it’s back and as strong as ever.
<———-well, you can come here…. my place needs cleaning.
Now I believe I have found the woman of my dreams!!!! YES!!!! 🙂