I’m so sorry, I feel like such an attention whore. I’ve already posted two times before this in the last two days and I’m wasting your time as it is… but I’m going to do it. I’m sitting here with a knife in my hand and I think I’m going to do it. I’m going to slash my throat. It’s either that or use the lighter I have next to me. Some stupid part of me is still holding out for some kind of humanity, some kind of hope to cling onto. Why should I let myself live. Why do I deserve to live. Please give me a valid reason. None of this ‘it’ll get better’ crap, I’ve been like this for seven years and I’m getting really sick of it. Please, I beg of all of you, find something for me to hold onto right now… anything…
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Don’t you ever wonder what can happen tomorrow? Wat can change?
There is no need to do anything rash or hasty. Reaching out clearly means you want to stay. It may never get better. But the alternative is nothing. Life is miserable. But it is better than nothing. If you decide it isn’t then that is the call you make. But it is a call that can be made tomorrow. Email me if you need to.
You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.
may be you need to stay upto the new year.i am going to do it on the new year.so…..you know…….just give it a time until then.
I’m not being rash I’ve considered this for a long time. I do want to stay. I want to appreciate life. But I just can’t and at the moment I think this is much worse than nothing. I don’t want to make the call tomorrow, I’ve put it off so long already.
If you are that ready, if you are that sure, then you do not need us Forgotten. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
I can’t. Why can’t I do this. I’m as sure as ever that I don’t want to live. Why can’t I go through with this. I can’t even try anymore, the most I can do is cut. Why am I such a coward…
To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering.
Please don’t do it.
Your not an attention whore.. but so what if you were? The world isn’t exactly the most fun happy place an if that’s all it takes to feel beter well they (“attention whores”) should go for it! Do what makes u feel beter if its possible to find something. maybe some distraction from your thoughts. I know what you mean it feels like it wont get beter cuz its been going on so long for me to.. on an off a lot.
Bornfordying… why not… why shouldn’t I?
Family, Freinds maybe?
My family hates me and I’ve only ever had one true friend.
Maybe another one will come along?
That is something to hope for.
If someone ones liked you, others can too.
Just… Atleast hold on untill the newyear like joinel said.
Idk it’s your choice im just throwing at you, what hope i can think of.
Good Luck.
I doubt it, unfortunately no body likes me. Can any one of you honestly say you like me? Even after knowing me for but a few minutes through online conversation you probably all hate me still, I’m just a hatable person, it’s no ones fault but my own. Thank you for trying to give me some hope to see but I seem to be blind. I just want to stop living. But I can’t bring myself to die. I hate this all so much. Thank you and sorry to all of you.
I think you are being too hard on yourself.
No one deserves to go through what you have been through.
And yes, i can honestly say i like you. Just from a few minutes of online
conversation i can tell that i like you WAY more then some of the people in my area.
You still have so much potential to do great things, and experience great things.
You are worth just as much as everyone else on this planet. If not more.
Please, take care of yourself.
Sorry but I don’t believe I’m being to hard on myself, I think I’m just being realistic. I am not a good human being. I can easily draw that conclusion from the number of people who hate me. I deserve what I’ve been through, in some ways I see it as punishment for being… well… this. The people in your area must be pretty awful, no offense. I don’t have any potential, what makes you think I do? I’m worth less and we both know it. What have I ever done for anyone… I don’t take care of others properly… why should I take care of myself…
Well, when work on improving yourself, maybe?
You got potential in that you’r still young and you still
have a lot of possibilities in front of you.
So what if people don’t like you? They probably just don’t understand you.
I still don’t think anyone deserves it.
What is it you find so hatable about yourself? Seriously.
Have you ever killed someone? Raped someone?
Or even beaten anyone?
If not then you are better then some of the guys around town.
And you should’t punish yourself so much.
Yeah, atleast that’s my opinion.
Take Care, Good Luck and Peace.
I guess I may as well try improving myself. It seems to be the only realistic option left now that you point it out. Thank you.
Of course, you’re an attention whore. You sound like that was the worst thing in the world. You need help and are demanding it, and this calls for attention. The question is whether you are willing accept the help that is offered?
Remember one thing……..
and I speak from experience too (and so do a lot of others on here)…….
the “best” people (most caring, nicest, thoughtful), suffer the most in this world.
We get taken advantage of. Its not your fault.
What you feel is what we all feel on here….rejection, alienated by so called friend/family, those we trusted/loved/cared about. Now we feel the results of that.
You (and all of us here) feel that pain because we aren’t like them….
I never like to use the word “better”, when describing one person over another, but the fact is either “someone hurts someone else”, or “we get hurt”.
You aren’t an ‘attention whore” anymore than I was when I went out and tried to end it. Its not about “hey, look at me”, its about “I feel so bad, I know no other way out.
Stay here, talk to us, we all feel for you. We have been, and are, in the same position you are, really.
But, we are still HERE.
We all ask you do the same please!! 🙂
I honestly really do like you. I honestly want to be your friend. I don’t hate you. I’d be really sad if you left. If I were you I wouldn’t try to improve yourself, that’ll never work. Ask God to help you to improve yourself, that will work ’cause he’s got power to help.
I suppose I’ll stick around for now at least. Not like I have anything left to lose. And also therishope I don’t believe in god anymore. I don’t believe that any kind and caring god could put so many good people through so much pain.
does god put people through it? or does he just let anything happen?
I think thats the real question.
When you already made the decision of taking your life enduring a little while to see if something changes, come along, or you can find some meaning, is not a bad thing to do… why? because you already decided to take your life, so why not live a little longer if you can do it at anytime?
Besides… you say you are an attention whore (i don’t think you are), so what? at least it is because of something valuable, because of suffering, not stupid things like social acceptance, money, or just wanting the world spinning around you… i know way too many people that demand attention for all the wrong reasons. If it where for that all of us on this site are attention whores looking for some comfort.
You say nobody would like you and that you are a bad person… (i don’t think you are but i don’t know you so who knows, no offense) you know what? even if you are you are at least aware of it, and can change it if you want… funnily, as everyone else as said, out of all the people that i’ve met, the nicest ones are the ones who suffer the most, and in most cases are catalogued as “bad people” for all the wrong reasons… just don’t be so hard on yourself, maybe then you’ll see you are not a bad person at all.
I want everything to change so badly. All I want is normality, I just want to have good friends I can trust who will stay around for over a year, I want a girlfriend who I love and who loves me back and I want to be able to make people happy. That’s all I want, I don’t think it’s that I don’t have it that’s what bothers me but moreover that something so simple is so much to ask of the world seemingly. I agree with one of your last statements though. All the nice people, all the people who seem to be good in this world seem to have been subjected to the worst of the world. The thing is I’ve barely been through anything compared to a lot of you and I still can’t appreciate what I have. I’m not being overly hard on myself despite what you seem to think sorry, it’s just the truth. I really am a bad person. I’m sorry but that’s how it is, people hate me to the point where I’m sitting here begging an online community who I know little to nothing about to keep me alive while I’m wasting their time with these recounts of the little problems in my life that I can’t get over because no one in real life cares any more than to tell me to go through with it and do the world a favour when I try to ask them for help. I am a bad person and I don’t know how to fix it.
People cant help you in this you have to do it yourself,you can change it’ll takre alot of time and just dont depend on anyone to solve your problems.
The pain comes through when we disobeyed God, the hope comes in believing in him, the change comes when he makes a new heaven and earth.