Happier Today

So, yesterday I had a complete break down at school during lunch. Once the tears started, the motherfuckers would not stop. So, that wasn’t fun.

Today, though, my mood has literally been a fucking roller-coaster all day, until this evening where it’s stayed pretty good. It’s only for one reason though.

I was talking to my friend, Ellie, and whilst sitting in the car; having nothing together in my head, after leaving school early I decided to inbox her saying I needed to tell her something (she was still at school), which she would then read when she got home. Of course, she read it and immediately replied. This was when I was in a fairly normal-ish state of mind, and I’d actually read what I put. I ended up having a panic attack in the kitchen when she kept asking me (I’m easily panicked when pressured into something), and so eventually I told her that I like her. Turns out I worried over nothing, because she told me she likes me back.

We’re not ‘officially dating’, though we’re having a debate on who’s cuter and more adorable and stuff like that, and we’ve said we’re each other’s eggs – it’s our joke from school which has been going on since last year.

So yeah, I’m actually surprised and happy that someone who I like actually likes me back for once. Though, God bless her poor, misguided heart.

Now I just need to be extra careful not to let my parents see my inboxes to her. My mum wouldn’t be so bad, but my stepdad? JesusfuckingChrist no. He can be such a homophobic prick.