Her name is Bri… Tonight, she made it perfectly clear that she would never leave her boyfriend for me.. Even though we have gotten so close..
He broke her heart and I took care of her.. but she still went back to him.. It hurts so much.. I’d do anything for her.. I’m so lost.. I wish I could just end it all.. I waited so long for her.. Nothing ever goes my way.. My life is agony..
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dont let her do that to u it may b hard but i think its best to move on dont think treat urself as a constellation prize just because she didnt chose u doesnt mean ur somehow lesser or that someone else wont u ar a prize, a first choice winner to somebody u just have to find them
I’ve been there before. Trust me, it will get better. I know, I know, you may have heard this so many times but it actually will. Time heals you, y’know. Although it would really really take a while. I know it hurts. a lot. But hang in there.
well, think of it this way….. if its meant to be, it will be.
You cant force someone to want you. You wouldnt want that anyway. Its not a healthy basis for the relationship.
She might have just willingly used you, or maybe she appreciates what you did for her, but in either case, don’t worry about it.
If you were there like you said, if she doesn’t, cant, someone else in your future will.
So, hang in there. I see a fine lady in your future (even if its not her).
For a while she always said ” I love you” to me, then she just stopped.. We were so close. We finished each other’s sentences. We spent so much time together.. She made me feel like a happy, normal human being.. She used to be the light in my dark world. Now her light has been replaced by a devouring void..
Last night, I just kept staring at my blades and swords.. I am a martial artist so physical pain is nothing to me. I try to follow the contents of the Hagakure so I do not fear death.. I.. almost fell off the edge..
Thank you for all the comments. I thought about how pathetic my death would be to end it all now..
I still feel like shoving a knife through my neck. But when I stare long enough at the void, I see a small flash of light..