that’s all I can say really. why mom do you hate me so much? why mike did you kick and hit me when mom wasn’t around? why did you call me a waste of space? why dad did you let brooke burn me with her cigarettes? why when she left did you isolate yourself? I was 7 years old making my own dinner out of anything I could find in the cabinets. cleaning the house and making sure you had enough beer for that night. I through all the bottles away and hid them so your friends wouldn’t see what you had become. ive been smiling for years and I am done now. but why should I tell? you never believed me when I needed you to the most.
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Sweetie, if you are being abused, you should report it. If you need therapy, you should ask for it. If you are at war with yourself, struggle is hopeless, because it is true that a house divided against itself can not stand.
The beginning point is being honest with yourself. You know you are not happy and that you can not fake it, so do not try to fake it. The forces within yourself are incredibly powerful. Used to heal, they will heal you. Used for harm, and they will harm you.
The help you need must come from someone who is mature and who has insight. Settle for nothing less than that. All the best.
G.W.
i went to therapy for awhile but I couldn’t bring myself to tell my therapist what happened. I swore that I would never talk about it again. I topped therapy because I knew it would make my dad feel better if he thought I was better. Im just being stupid.
Listen to GW…you have to…dont dismiss it. How old are you?
im 16. I tried reporting it before but nobody believed me they all believed my mom and now that I don’t live with my mom anymore they really wont believe me. I haven’t told anybody about brooke except my dad but he was drunk and he is so happy now so I cant tell him because it would do no good.
I can relate. I had to deal with my abuser step-dad and my mom never believed me. In fact, she said I was lying. I told some members of the “church” i used to attend with them and the same happened there. I felt betrayed. Still do.