On the surface, everything seems great.
My family’s together, my grades look great, I have a circle of close friends, my boyfriend loves me.
But I always think about how nice it would be to shut everything out and cease to exist. Nothing that that world cares about would matter anymore. My death would be of no major consequence. It doesn’t matter that the projects I have in hand are unfinished. I will leave a void and that void will quickly be filled by the competition that presents itself. People will remember me, but not for long, for they will all be gone. It would be all peaceful and serene. Life goes on.
It’s such a numbing effect. So what if I don’t get to see the great things in life? So what if I never make it big? So what if I never get to see the great monuments and beautiful natural landscape of Earth? So what if I never know what it is like to be married? What I don’t do is of no consequence to me.
Why die? What is the purpose of doing that?
Let me ask you: What is the purpose of life?
Well, I think the purpose of life is to live a happy life. That is all. And when I’m sick of doing that, I’ll just end it.
That is all.
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i can answer why you should die. Because everybody is happy, and emotions well they never seemed to affect me as much as it did other people. I always felt like emotion is just a show. to lick each other’s wounds, we are supposed to feel love for one another. Fuck that, fuck living. For one reason, you can die! thats it. Don’t you want to stop knowing and ascend to the unknown? This is the point of light, its darkness. Darkness is much more accepting than light. I personally want to die because iv had enough of hope, and happiness and i do not want to live with people always pretending to feel this and that. Like fuck that, id rather live alone forever, but unfortunately you have to mingle with society.